The end of the semester is hitting me like a brick wall. If I can make it to April 9th it's gonna be fine, but until then, I'm kind of holding on for dear life and making the title of this post my personal mantra. Here's a photograph of the sunset in February when life was simpler and more beautiful and mostly just less full of deadlines. It's gonna be fine, right?
Today I gripped on a BYU capstone film set for 14 hours. I'm exhausted but I'm also strangely fulfilled. It's not exactly the life of the party doing all the grunt work (aka being a grip) from 4 am till sundown but I've learned a lot over the past few months and it's exciting to be a part of such a collaborative effort. And craft services always makes life better. Producers understand that when you're tired and you've been working hard sometimes you just need some cheez-its right now.
Here's a picture of Katy Perry from her SLC concert in Septemeber because yolo.
Do you ever associate specific things with a certain period of time in your life, like food or movies or a song? My senior year of high school, I had surgery to get my tonsils out and recovery was miserable. There were complications with my ears that made swallowing incredibly painful, blah blah blah. Anyway I basically lived on the family room couch for three weeks. I started watching Friday Night Lights during the day and when I couldn't sleep at night I would watch Late Night With Jimmy Fallon reruns. I have a weird nostalgic fondness for these two things (and my mom's green fleece sweatshirt) because I associate them with getting me through that post-op recovery.
I have a similar fondness for the movie Skyfall. It's the movie that made me realize I wanted to become a cinematographer (another story for another time) but it got me through 2D Design my first semester of college. I had this class for FIVE HOURS every Thursday night—the professor was terrible, and I had none of the required skills (as a photography student there was no choice but to take this graphic design/illustration class as a visual arts prerequisite). I would bring my laptop to class and watch it while I worked. When the credits rolled, I would say to myself, "self, we're halfway there!" Then I'd start the 2 1/2 hour movie from the beginning and then when it was finally over, so was class. Skyfall got me through.
In my family we love The Wonder Years. My mom always talks about watching it many a night when she couldn't sleep. Right now for me it's Law & Order. Thanks, Olivia Benson/Rollins/Ice T/Detective Amaro and especially DA Barba (I love the judicial system!), for getting me through. Also, just for fun I changed my text alert to the iconic Law & Order sound effect. It makes getting a text exponentially more dramatic/exciting. I highly recommend.
And just because, here's a photograph I made with my cell phone of some roses at Disneyland.
I have a similar fondness for the movie Skyfall. It's the movie that made me realize I wanted to become a cinematographer (another story for another time) but it got me through 2D Design my first semester of college. I had this class for FIVE HOURS every Thursday night—the professor was terrible, and I had none of the required skills (as a photography student there was no choice but to take this graphic design/illustration class as a visual arts prerequisite). I would bring my laptop to class and watch it while I worked. When the credits rolled, I would say to myself, "self, we're halfway there!" Then I'd start the 2 1/2 hour movie from the beginning and then when it was finally over, so was class. Skyfall got me through.
In my family we love The Wonder Years. My mom always talks about watching it many a night when she couldn't sleep. Right now for me it's Law & Order. Thanks, Olivia Benson/Rollins/Ice T/Detective Amaro and especially DA Barba (I love the judicial system!), for getting me through. Also, just for fun I changed my text alert to the iconic Law & Order sound effect. It makes getting a text exponentially more dramatic/exciting. I highly recommend.
And just because, here's a photograph I made with my cell phone of some roses at Disneyland.
My sister texted me this video the other day at work and my co-workers can testify that I cried actual tears because I was laughing so hard. It won the spot as my favorite cat video ever, right alongside stalking cat and cats try to understand treadmill. All of these bring me to tears. I just love cats so much—they understand life and they do whatever they want.
It's going to be a long week. There are a lot of things on my to-do list and schedule. School deadlines, work photoshoots, and I'm gripping on a production almost every weekend this month.
At least there are a few silver linings.
Last year I bought a Leica on eBay but the price was no guarantee that it worked. I shot a roll of film in early February to find out the verdict. I forgot to wind it up after I was done shooting and I opened the back of the camera for a split second before realizing what I'd done. The whole beautiful roll of portra should've been ruined but I got it developed anyway and apparently cashed in all my good karma because BAM! The image below was the only one with even the slightest light leak. Blessings.
I was just asked today to be the DP for a short film this summer and I'm both honored and ecstatic. This is no small task, but it's a huge opportunity for learning and growth and I could not be more nervous but excited. Please tell me you get this reference because it's my favorite thing.
Follow your heart and live your dreams bbs. You can do it!
Working on lots of homework and video shoots this weekend.
Recently rediscovered how much I love honey bunches of oats (see below).
Law & Order. I could take or leave the crime, but I love love love the judicial side of it. I CAN'T STOP
I would like to hire Emma Stone's stylist from Spiderman 2 to redesign my life because I just want to be Gwen Stacy—is that too much to ask? Minus the dying part.
Recently rediscovered how much I love honey bunches of oats (see below).
Law & Order. I could take or leave the crime, but I love love love the judicial side of it. I CAN'T STOP
I would like to hire Emma Stone's stylist from Spiderman 2 to redesign my life because I just want to be Gwen Stacy—is that too much to ask? Minus the dying part.
As a goal-oriented person it can sometimes be hard to live in the moment. I'm always thinking ten steps ahead, about due dates and 5 year plans and what I want to do with my life. And while it's exciting and important to think ahead, it sometimes makes the mundane days seem like less. The days when you wake up just in time to get to 8 AM class and go to work and and watch a bunch of Law & Order while you do your homework.
These kinds of days are beautiful and important even thought it might be easy to forget or maybe never even realize that. I want to spend time documenting them and I wanted a fresh new place, a clean slate where I could do just that. So I started a new blog. It's a study on living in the moment (right here, right now) and since I love cats more than people, a pun was in order (now —> meow).
Here's to personal work.
I don't feel like capitalizing things lately because I've been reading a lot of E. E. Cummings. But also grammar. I'm so torn right now. Mostly this post is going to act as a test post because I feel like making a new blog and having a fresh start. Here's a project about feminism that I made for one of my film classes. YOLO. Love you bbs.